"Kind"

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7:01 am Tuesday October 9 2007
Communicated from my Higher Self

“Kind”

Yes this is start of 3rd week. Yes, she still has booboo. No, she did not have funk yesterday. So let’s look at the positives first. She had a whole day yesterday where the funk did not descend at all. “Funk” is Jan’s word with her talent for descriptive accuracy. Yes Annie carried on a lot this morning that booboo is still here. She pointed out to me 1000 times it is start of 3rd week. But she did have a whole day without any funk at all. And the funk was the mental counterpart to the physical booboo. If she could see straight, which she can’t, she would realize if the funk has lifted the physical booboo is due to lift. That all the symptoms are part of a whole. But she is understandably upset that booboo has gone on l-o-n-g time. So all I ask of her is she simply calm down.

If she were willing to look at this any other way beside having a tantrum, she would realize something this prolonged indicates magnitude, and this is a HUGE shift. Another positive about yesterday, which she overlooked, beside a day free of funk, is that on 3 separate occasions, even tho it only lasted for an instant, her happiness came back, by which I mean an active experience of happiness. She felt happy, was aware of feeling happy, and was happy about feeling happy. What this is, of course, is a feeling of total well being. It is spirits bubbling up into joy.

And she is experiencing a shift taking place, altho she is not aware of it. Suddenly she feels much happier in Tucson, there is the feeling that it is the right fit for her, that complete contentment of being in the right place at the right time, as if Tucson fits her. Fits like a glove, relaxing into Tucson the way you relax into a warm bath, a frictionless experience. And if she would look closely she would see this is happening in many little ways. A new frictionless experience, a new right fit, a new ease. And it is because she is now at ease.

I think there is a new security. It’s very subtle. But other than emotions about the booboo, she is on even keel. And a new perspective is very readily available to her. Seeing with a new perception is becoming second nature. And she is gentler with herself. She doesn’t damn herself. I am not saying that in the current of her days, and the current of her mind, there are not all those little rises, which would have rose to wave of condemnation in the past. But the little wave rises, and she looks past it. She no longer wants to condemn herself.

The whole structure and fabric of self-condemnation, all the assumptions and beliefs which girded it, these have melted away. What was a huge awful towering indestructible structure, has sunk to the bottom of the sea. There are now just little rises where it used to be. It goes in one ear and out the other. The argument for self condemnation is quickly replaced by an argument for forbearance and gentleness of herself. She switches gears and backs up when it starts.

Yes there has been a lot of switching gears and backing up. But so what. It’s still a smooth ride. The habit of veering off in the wrong direction hasn’t gone completely away, but now it’s no big deal. She switches gears and backs up. She doesn’t make a production about it. She instantly switches gear and backs up. It’s just an ooops. She has a loving attitude towards herself. That is the big breakthru. And that is worth all the tea in China.

And that is what this shift is all about, for everyone everywhere. No matter where they were before the shift began, they will experience a softening towards themselves. A softer attitude towards others, a softer attitude towards themselves. The cruel world has ended and the new soft world has risen to take its place. Annie is being kind to herself. For first time ever. This is cause for rejoicing.

And soft as the feathers on the morning dove, the new kind world has risen. O my beloved darlings, all of you. The booboos are just birth pangs, because something new and wonderful is being delivered in your heart. So, Annie for once in your life, try to keep your eye on the ball. A little discomfort accompanies this glorious birth. But be glad you are a witness to it. The birth is taking place in everyone, but not so many are watching it happen. If only you knew what you are watching happen, you might consider not making such a huge fuss about the uncomfortable side effects. But be of good cheer. They are on their way out, and yes we can be patient.

All my love to all of you,
Love, Annie's Higher Self