October 4 2006 7:22 am Thursday "New"
Communicated from my Higher Self
Annie had tough afternoon yesterday because of ascension booboo. The ascension booboo is not that bad. As Jan correctly said, “it is annoying.” But Annie’s attitude changes widely about it. Sometimes she ignores it, and sometimes she has a fit about it. Since ignoring it makes it disappear and having a fit about it exacerbates it, she had an awful afternoon. Finally at 6 pm she calmed down about it and went to her computer, and emailed, and enjoyed herself. Until “The Sopranos” came on, which she enjoyed, and then she went to sleep.
Yesterday which began out as most beautiful day in world, turned into glaring hot sun, way too hot, and everyone wanted the 3 days of cool cloudy drizzle back. A too hot, too bright, too sunny day in Tucson is nothing except when it comes in early October, and no one can stand the heat for one more instant. This is same reason she had fit about her ascension booboo yesterday. It is a big nothing but it is 8th straight day of it. She wants it over already. This is why her mind crashed at the pool yesterday. The water was too warm, they had begun to heat it because of the cold spell at nights. The day was way too hot and too bright. And her mouth was bothering her. All she wanted was total escape. Which is understandable, no one likes being bugged too long.
She wants me to take away the booboo and began threatening me. “Don’t threaten me” I said, “I'll do it.” But she didn’t believe I would, she began threatening me again. “Don’t threaten me” I said. We never had a conversation where she threatened me 4 times and 4 times I said “Don’t threaten me.”
She thought I was short and abrupt and harsh by saying “don’t threaten me,” but I was just nipping in the bud what would be unwise for her to do. Her threats are idiotic and dramatic. There is no reason for her to carry on like that. Plus it deteriorates the quality of our conversation, our communication. She introduces unreality into what is totally real.
She was shocked I was abrupt with her. But I actually thought a new note of equality had entered our relationship. She had never dared threaten me before, I had never answered her abruptly before, the distance between us was collapsing. Good! We are closer than lovers when we are loving each other, but when it is a problem-solving conversation, she is the beseecher. I liked it that she rose up from one knee and uttered her idiotic threats. I am ready for us to be equal in all ways. I am sorry it took bugged-out-of-her-mind for her to be willing to cross the boundary. But I am so happy she decided to cross the boundary. I want her up here with me in all ways. It will be so much more fun for both of us to be equal in all ways. She will like the new changed relationship.
Of course she will have to get used to me being more short and abrupt. But I think she can handle that. She didn’t plotz when I was short and abrupt yesterday, just surprised. She didn’t know what it meant, she confused it with hostility. “No,” I reassured her, “we are just being equals, you said you wanted this, that was how you introduced your threats.”
There will be a lot of changes by the time this high pressure cooker stage has ended. Annie is not the only one subjected to this high pressure, it is impacting whole planet. Everyone whether they are aware of it or not, is involved in some stage of enduring or bearing up, under it. The physical symptoms vary but the pressure on the mind is identical. And it will result in, as it was meant to do, a great re-evaluation. That is really what is happening all thru it. All kinds of things are being presented to the mind for re-evaluation. That is why when it is over so much will be different. It is because so many things were re-evaluated during it. All relationships will be subtly changed, because the process of re-evaluation is so very very interesting.
What is actually happening now is a whole lot of new light is entering the mind, which results in seeing everyone differently. It can begin off with a tiny bit of discomfort or conflict in some cases, “our friendship was so smooth, what’s going wrong?” But next thing you know you will see your friend in much clearer light, understanding her far better, and you can have revitalized friendship.
Or it can take place with zero discomfort or apparent conflict. Like a bud which opened up into a beautiful flower. Suddenly you get to see the whole flower.
In all cases you get to see sides of your friend you didn’t see before. You get to see her in a newer fuller way. And what makes it all special and wonderful is the newness. As if overnight all the flowers in the forest opened up, and it is a new morning, and you are walking thru the forest and beholding all the new wonderful flowers.
Honey I am so sorry this has not been the easiest and most enjoyable of times for you. But despite all your idiotic and ridiculous threats, you really want this. You really want the changes this not-so-comfortable stage is bringing forth. Darling don’t you understand, we are bringing forth a lovely new world, for you and for everyone.
So try to bear up a little longer. The cost is so tiny, and what you are being given is so great.
I love you.
Annie’s Higher Self
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