Sunday, October 14, 2007 6:54 am “Noticing”
Communicated from my Higher Self
Communicated from my Higher Self
Well Annie’s last dream before she woke up, was that Catherine and Chance were reconciled. They were her neighbors at 87 First Avenue, back in lower Manhattan. In the dream Chance was wearing a costume, like what you wear to a costume party, and Catherine was wearing the same costume, so it seemed logical they should be together again now. Annie had them stand next to each other and said “I would love to take your picture.” So they posed for their picture together. And she said, “but I need a camera and film to take your picture, wait let me look for it!” Since Chance was hungry, he said bring me back food, he also wanted cream and sugar for his coffee. And she found a bag of cookies and candy she was going to bring to him, and was looking for cream and sugar when she woke up. The dream didn’t take place in her old apartment building but in an apartment building near 6th Avenue and 9th Street in Greenwich Village.
Since it would take a miracle of the western world to bring Chance and Catherine back together again, this is quite a nice dream. As they really had loved each other. And it is too bad Catherine got fed up with Chance and ended the marriage. He never stopped loving her and wanting her back, and he would be the happiest man in the world to have her back. And in Annie’s dream last night he did.
It’s nice that Annie had a dream that Chance finally got what he most wanted in the whole world plus it’s also nice she dreamt that because he made a great deal of trouble for her. It’s a nice dream of healing and forgiveness, that Annie dreamt Chance’s marriage was restored and she was hunting for a bag of goodies and treats to bring back to him.
I am glad she had this dream this morning. I want her to know this period of difficulty and intenseness is accomplishing many great things. It would be nice if she had a sweeter attitude about it, instead of so much frustration.
Her booboo hasn’t gone away yet but there is definite improvement, but talking is still hard for her. She prefers to remain quiet. Because she is not talking there is nothing to disturb her concentration. She is fully aware all the time. Which means she notices with full awareness everyone she comes into contact with. Her focus before had been giving love to all she encountered, she was focused on expressing love for them. Now that she is so mute, she gets to experience their love. She notices every single loving thing each person does.
She noticed how kind and loving and helpful the quiet lady in the bakery was yesterday. She noticed the warmth coming towards her the lifeguard greeted her at pool yesterday. She noticed that when Patsy said “how are you?” last week, she really meant it, she wanted to be reassured Annie was fine, there was caring in her question.
It all began few weeks ago at Catalina pool, when a woman came up to her and greeted her happily and said “I haven’t seen you in long time.” Annie did not recognize her. “How is everything?” Annie asked her. She said “everything is terrible, my husband is very ill and all I have done for past year is take care of him.” She looked at her watch and said “I have to get back now.” “I’ll pray for him” Annie said. “Pray he either goes to Heaven, or gets better, this is an ordeal.” “I’ll pray first he gets better, if not, let him be happy in Heaven.” And she said “thank you” and Annie put out her arms and hugged her.
Altho people do hug all the time, especially in movies, this is the first time Annie hugged someone, who until that conversation was a perfect stranger to her. Annie is not a hugger. But speech is limited, and she wanted to express all her feelings, she wanted to express love for the woman, and so she put her arms around her and kissed her on her face. And a few days later when Gail arrived at pool, she had not seen Gail in long time, and she looked at Gail more or less mutely, Gail put her arm around her to say hi. It felt good, the affection.
Her natural way of giving and receiving affection is free flow of kidding joy laughter affection, but most of the time this isn’t available to her now. Altho few days ago, while she was swimming with Gail in the lane and Gail was telling her about her amazing dream, just when Gail finished telling her the dream, Alfredo got out of the pool, and started to make jokes about Bill, and was calling to Annie. And her spirits were so high and happy in every way she was able to kibitz back and forth with Alfredo too, she could have fun again. And in the shower the time before with Gail, the shower after her swim, she had tons of jokes about earth shoes with Gail. Laughing with Gail is one of her favorite things. For some reason they find each other so funny.
But 98 percent of the time, all thru this time, Annie is very quiet. Which is why she is getting such an opportunity to know everyone else so well, or to see them so clearly, or to have the full experience of them. And she is liking it a lot. The woman in the bank the other day was so nice to her. Everyone is so nice to her.
When this is all over, and yes Annie it will be, it will be interesting to see if she returns to being so talkative, or if she is quieter. There are huge benefits to both. And it is nice now she is experiencing the other. This is really an interesting and fruitful time in every way.
It’s nice when her spirits get happy during this time, because it’s like change of weather on the desert, where you go from shivering and then it is 50 degrees warmer all in space of an hour. So you feel the release into warmth, same time you experience the beneficent warmth. I don’t know how to describe it, she is under a dark cloud, and then all of a sudden she is bathing in golden light. Her spirits soar, and there is some spreading warmth contentment with it. I know there hasn’t been much of it, but it does arrive now at some point in the morning, her spirits jump 40 degrees, it sure is nice for her, and I am glad she has it.
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