"big and delightful"

Friday April 11 2008 6:47 am
Communicated by my Higher Self
"big and delightful"

Another perfect beautiful April morning. Each one more beautiful than the next. Altho two days ago, right in the midst of beautiful April mornings, a big fast-moving storm blew in, a whole day of stormy weather, and then presto! back to these exquisite April mornings. It could be a metaphor for Annie's life right now. There is an enchanted happiness happening, and then out of nowhere, suddenly, big storm, with all the works, grey cloudy chill thunder lightning rain. Bright and beautiful turns dark and cold. Loveliness turns to awfulness. And then back again to enchanted April. LOL just when she thinks "this is my new life, enchanted April," one of these awful storms blew into her mind. There are thunder claps, there is running for cover, there is turning cold dark stormy, there is "woe is me!" She freaks out, dark hopelessness returns, she thinks she is back to square one.

Meanwhile an incredible enchanted April is happening outside her window right at this minute. There has never been this much beautiful. The beauty is a non pareil. The green translucent leaves where the rising sun shines right thru them. That green! Those leaves! There has never been anything like that. This is what paradise looks like.

So the girl has a few problems! Big deal! Her idea of happiness is not having problems. But they come. She ran into one last night and it popped up again this morning too. Altho it didn't knock her for a loop this morning as it did last night. But it looks like it will be around. But she had an interesting dream as she was waking up:

In her dream she had a problem, not a personal problem, it was like a political drama, except she was in it. She realized the clue to the mystery was the cook. The drama centered around Juan Williams, a political reporter who is on a news show she watches (he is a nice friendly guy). In the dream she notices the food was so delicious, that she thought, if we find the cook we will find the solution, the cook is the key to what is happening. Something wrong seemed to be happening, but she didn't want it to be a big exposé and embarrass anyone, she thought it should be handled quietly. "We just have to find out who is cooking for Juan Williams because he is the same one cooking for the other guy" she said. "This food is so delicious, it is the clue to the cook, the cook is preparing food for both of them together, they must meet together." All thru the dream she kept seeing it as a bad problem which had to be solved, as something bad was happening, and a solution had to be found, something big and bad. But as she opened her eyes in the morning, the voice was still speaking the dream to her. She heard the voice, it was a clear girl's voice. And the last words the voice said were "big and delightful."

"Big and delightful" she thought, "I thought it was big and bad."

"Something big and delightful is happening" were the words she heard. "I thought something big and bad was happening" she thought.

She thought "this is the exact opposite of how I have been seeing it."

Yes (in her life now) a person has started to hang around their life who is trouble, who brings trouble wherever he goes. lol he is the personification of trouble. And yes Annie would like Bill to shoo him away instead of befriending him. She doesn't like it that he is living in his van in front of their house. When he was hanging around last autumn, in their yard, she heard him bully one of the neighbor children who live up the block. Apparently the kid had done work for him and he had promised to pay the kid, and when the kid came around to ask for the money, he bullied the child very meanly. Bill did not like it either and told him to go away. And he hasn't been back till this week, when Bill has befriended him again.

So it's natural Annie's mind in her dream would go around and around a problem which has to be solved. Altho oddly enough, there is very little connection between Juan Williams'(dream) political problem, and the troublesome man in their front yard. The only thing significant about that dream is the voice she heard speaking it at the end saying "big and delightful."

So what I want to suggest is that even tho if Annie had her way she would rule out all problems in her life, she would not allow one to enter, it can be the nature of problems to bring a change which is big and delightful. Obviously a man who brings trouble wherever he goes, is not someone anyone wants in their life. But trouble causes change. And change means something which is fixed one way, breaks up, and can come together in a new way. Annie has real problems of her own, which have nothing to do with whether a man who brings trouble walked into their front yard. She has troubles in her own mind, half the time she is happy half the time she is troubled, and they are lodged very adhesively in her mind. And it certainly would be big and delightful if she could ever get rid of them. That is why she freaked out last night and lost all hope. The advent of the man who brings trouble in her yard again last night, brought back to mind all of Annie's own troubles. Her freaked-out response was a response to that, his advent always triggers that for Annie. Altho it can be triggered by anything at anytime.

So my suggestion to Annie is, it would be a godsend of all godsends to have this big trouble in her mind finally resolved. It has been way too many years of it. To be free of it would be solid secure real happiness, not changeable as an April day. So maybe she can try for an open mind about the man who brings trouble. Yes he stirs things up, but by the time it is over, she could wind up big and delightful.

All my love to all of you,
Annie’s Higher Self